Sunday, November 20, 2011


Have you ever just been chugging along in life, not feeling especially unhappy? Maybe a little stressed, maybe thinking about things that you'd like to be doing, accomplishing, never quite finding the time...days, weeks, months go by...? Then all of a sudden, you realize that you've made a series of small changes in your life that all add up to you being fundamentally off track. That you've practically given up all the things that bring joy to you and your family? Feeling spiritually, physically and mentally out of sorts... That's where I've been for the past few years.

Too much of my time has been spent just treading water. Going to work, keeping the house from being condemned, getting some kind of food on the table, keeping the kids presentable & homework done. I think I was once an excellent wife and mother, but lately I've slipped into just getting by.  Part of my trouble is that I had a difficult pregnancy & just gave up on all deep cleaning...that's when the getting by started. After 9 months of that, I feel overwhelmed by the state things have gotten caring for an infant. Another part of my trouble is the work schedule that sounded like a dream come true, but hasn't materialized into such...working 7 days on, then 7 days off. I imagined myself living the carefree life one week in my ultra clean & organized home, while still enjoying my nice, full-time paycheck. Ha! Honestly, I'm so tired after my work week, that I'm not getting much accomplished when I'm off. Once or twice a week I read all the great sewing and decorating blogs I love. I make plans to get some projects done. Sometimes I start them, sometimes I don't even get that far. I've just lost my to get it back?